I just can't shake off the intuition that smth bad's gonna happen. And I realised that this feeling comes in a sort of pattern.

There's so much to school work to attend to, and it's bothering me so badly that I think abt it all the time. School's at the back of my head whenever wherever and it sucks big time! It's killing the festive fever and everything jolly that's suppose to go along with it. And how much does it suck, tell me just how much, that I gotta b done with everyone of my assignments 3 days (may not seem significant but with the amount of workload, trust me, and allowance of 3 days can do wonders) b4 everyone else. Due to my friend's wedding which is conveniently held on the second last day of school. Geeesus! I still gotta get this and that, alterations done, assignments completed, no meager quality pieces of crap..

And please, allow me to bask in a bit of recognition. My TV production lecturer commented on my voice and it made me feel, well, happy. Just feels a lil bit like I'm one step closer to my seemingly unrealistic dream of becoming a radio jock. Mayb I cld turn out like Jean Danker, or Rosalyn who's so full of spunk. Mayb, just mayb.

But it takes so much to rise to that level. All those connections u have to make. I'm not extremely sociable, really. If u throw me into a bar alone, I can't make friends or talk to a stranger without feeling self conscious. And I fear for the things I might say. Esp since I'm not all that savvy or well read in matters which concern the world, or in the society we live in. But I do try. Going to Zouk more often than anywhere else's a step right? According to sources, that's the place where ppl involved in the media industry go to mingle and expand their list of contacts. So there, being a priv member does help. A bit. I hope.

Yes yes, on and on about insecurities and all that jazz. Jols has yet to send me the pictures we took at DXO, the night I made a short appearance of half and hour just to support a couple of friends b4 I had to scoot home because of class the next day. But the day didn't just include a mini escapade to the club, it was alot of talk and laughter and a movie titled The Holiday all fixed into a mixture called Bestfriend Love. =D

Pictures'll b up soon, though they'll probably only contain the images of 2 girls camwhoring.. Haha. Happy holidays!